On October 13, 2020, my brother was going through his personal Daheshist documents and he found a letter written by our Beloved referencing me. He was puzzled, because he did not remember how he even got it! He sent me a copy and inquired if I had given it to him. I responded no, for I didn’t even have a copy myself. I explained to him the circumstances behind it, and they are as follows:

On that day, as you can see from the date and time, it was 5:00 AM on May 27, 1974, our Beloved used to wake me up as early as 3:00AM so that we can continue our work on certain things. It had been a long time, but as far as I can remember, we were sitting alone in the kitchen talking and I told him that I wanted to write him something for his birthday on June 1^st, but changed my mind, because I do not have the linguistic ability to write like the many Daheshist writers and poets. He answered me saying: “my dearest, we are the ones that should write about you!” We continued to do what we were doing before the conversation. After a while, he handed me this document and said to me: ”Hilda this is your piece to read during the June 1^st celebration.” I was shocked! For it was written in a matter of minutes, and I am sure it was written spiritually, because it conveyed exactly what I initially was thinking of writing. I read it on June 1^st of that year. Usually our Beloved used to say to us give or convey the important things to our late brother Dr. Ghazi Brax so that he can document them.

Here is the translation and the original document:

I have come to know you, so I loved you! Prior to that, I was in a constant state of uneasiness mixed with agony; my worries subjected my mind to horrible terrors; and I feared darkness as well as light. To me, the light rays were as bad as darkness. My heart trembled, my feelings agitated, and gloom overtook me. At the time, I wished to die, however, death would avoid me, and I pleaded with the grave to entomb me.

Divine Providence willed for me to see you, so I met you! As a result, my life had changed, for after misery came anticipation; after desperation came hope; after agony came days of comfort; after sadness, my heart was overtaken with happiness; after wretchedness, my heart overfilled with joy; and after fear came courage. I achieved all this great change through your great Spiritual Fluid (Sayyal)—how happy I am for the lofty Spiritual knowledge that I learned—and my hope is to accompany you as long as I am alive; sheltered under your wings; encompassed in reassurance under your protection; and being happy to dwell in your realms.

I hope from God to grant you your wishes and extend your stay with us, for we are strong in your presence and weak in your absence. I have full hope of living with you, not only on earth, but also in heavens.

Hilda Maryood [Murad]

Beirut 05/27/1974 at 5 am